I am often depressed. The last few days have been difficult, filled with storms of the heart-mind. I am a storm dragon, after all. Whence one comes, a significant one, of thunder or drenching rain, of two cycles intertwining to form one unseasonable event, I feel it. It haunts me, sometimes days before it occurs. […]
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I haven’t been able to meditate with my eyes closed lately. And every time I feel to embody, it doesn’t happen. Not the way it used to. For a week or so I just let it slide but then I started to wonder if I was doing it wrong. If maybe I wasn’t staying present […]
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We have a few neighbourhood cats that come around for food every night. One insists on coming during the day too but s/he’s a special case (see below).
Anyway, there’s a boy we call Hops who’s definitely homeless (only the homeless kids eat the raw food, for some reason) and we’d like to make sure he’s dry, safe and warm this winter so we bought him a little house. When I told the delivery driver what it was for, he looked at me like I had two heads. I guess looking after strays is not everybody’s cup of tea.
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If speaking with humans means me being tired and sick then maybe it’s animals, trees, rivers and rocks that I am called to work with instead. That’s what came to me yesterday. That’s where I’m at right now. Wondering what will come next. And if it is animals, how does that equate to ‘working’? is […]
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People don’t know how much pain I’m in, every day, and how hard I fight… to get things done, to carry on (being), and simply to appear as if I am not so I might avoid conversations about how un.well I might be or, worse still, if I am yet using my gift to help […]
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Contribution Regret, I think I’ll call it, or maybe Participation Rue. Any way I describe its headline there’s a remorse at having opened my mouth for some community gathering or another and it pains me not to be able to erase myself from the map of all that is… and yet, I’m completely at home […]
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Not long ago I chose to have my name evaluated by a Chaldean Astro-numerologist. It was a blast — a blast of elemental air into my energetic process around what to do now. In a very concrete way, it helped me figure out what my new business name might be and how to refer to […]
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Somehow I feel like if I have it all written down then it will make more sense and may even have a bigger impact on my everyday life. But even when I do get part of the process done there’s too much to remember in one go or too much to be able to recall […]
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On Days That I Don’t Feel I Have Anything To Offer … I just have that feeling. I just keep going into and onto whatever else is showing up for me to keep going onto and into. It’s not some special trick to get to some special state of awareness or energy that suddenly lifts […]
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In gaitian technology, only Earth has corners. Heaven is round. I love this open circle that exists around all-that-is. I am drawn to its beauty, to its simple calm horizon where there is only talking and no sound.
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